Thursday, October 23, 2008

Pardon me while I have a moment...

WHY THE FUCK IS EVERYONE PREGNANT?

Now back to your regularly scheduled, calm and collected blogger. Because seriously, surely I can't find out again tomorrow that 4 people I know are pregnant. Right? RIGHT???

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Gray Hair

The UPS man just told me I was too young to have gray hair. I think responsibility for them can be divided equally between Crazy Man and my sister, with a marginal percentage due to other family members/peripheral-married-in-family members. And now, instead of blogging about my gray hair as a way to waste time, I think I'm going to go do some work. I'm not feeling so motivated today. But I've been sitting here at my desk for an our, so I figure it's time to move on.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Quick question

What is it that people don't understand about apostrophes? I mean, commas can get complicated, but apostrophes?!?! I suppose I can understand people using no apostrophes (especially on internet forums for example). But why use extraneous apostrophes? Why? I wonder if there's a blog of unnecessary apostrophes?

Anxiety

I had developed moderately severe depression while I was using hormonal contraceptives. I was approaching the point of actually seeking treatment, but I decided to try going birth control pill free first, as depression is a known side effect. It worked phenomenally! I have been pill free for over three months now, and for the most part I've been feeling great! However, the mild anxiety I was experiencing prior to quitting has not completely disappeared. In fact, it's significantly worse at times.

My first two months off the pill I had what I would call moderately severe anxiety attacks. I was completely befuddled at first, but learned pretty quickly a few tricks that helped me cope and calm down more rapidly. In month three, things started to dramatically improve as far as my anxiety goes. I haven't had any attacks at all this month, and only some brief anxiety when presented with tasks that tend to trigger anxiety for me.

I had been doing so much better, until today. Boom! Out of nowhere, an attack. It's much less severe that what I had been experiencing, but it really threw me for a loop because I had been doing so well. It's especially frustrating because I can't for the life of me figure out anything at all that seems to trigger it, especially this particular instance.

But I guess I'll just have to take comfort for now in the fact that things are still improving. I haven't felt depressed at all this month, so anxiety or no, that's a huge positive step! :) Things are looking up, and I actually feel like I'm good at something again. I'm actually enjoying science again. I actually feel like there's a possibility I can succeed.